Sleep (song – rework)

I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I still think about you
can’t laugh, won’t cry, I still dream about you
every day you’re in my mind, can’t be without you
I’m fading inside, all I can do is sing about you

trying to find a way but can’t seem to reach you
and you never tried to find a way to at least give me closure
so I’m writing rhymes and bass and keys and drums
don’t give a fuck if the end of the world comes
when a man doesn’t care what happens to him
no amount of fear or shame can get beneath his skin
they can put me jail or shoot me in the streets
either way is unimportant other people got my beats
don’t care if I disappear or become famous
a man without hope is motherfucking shameless

I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I still think about you
can’t laugh, won’t cry, I still dream about you
every day you’re in my mind, can’t be without you
I’m fading inside, all I can do is sing about you

If I feel guilt for what I said and done after
it should be overfilled with the coldness that you brought with you
you wanna bring me to my knees like you did before
do it I just don’t care for this shit no more
they can shoot me and kill me or lock me up
don’t give a shit, without you I don’t give a fuck
let them take me I’ll spit in their faces too
only thing I gave a fuck about in the world was you
producer got my beats going to release them
songs all about you although my heart and my mind are numb

I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I still think about you
can’t laugh, won’t cry, I still dream about you
every day you’re in my mind, can’t be without you
I’m fading inside, all I can do is sing about you

Ain’t got no fire but I’m screaming scorched earth
I realized that nothing you said ain’t got no worth
property of daddy was what your sign said
still got it on my fridge for anything it meant
still staring with my eyes unfocused and glazed
with the panties you left in my mailbox when I was away
you gave it to me and it’s the only thing I read
I’m lost and you don’t even care to look for me your silence said
don’t give a fuck if I rise or fall don’t care what happens
I was never in your thoughts I was just some distraction

I can’t eat, I can’t sleep, I still think about you
can’t laugh, won’t cry, I still dream about you
every day you’re in my mind, can’t be without you
I’m fading inside, all I can do is sing about you

Reworked lyrics at the request of the producer.

Dress (song)

Why do all the love songs remind me of you
Why is the colour of my world your eyes so blue
Why did I believe your heart was true
Everyday I feel the pain, think about you

Roses are red but the rooms are all black
did you say you loved me from some kind of lack
drinking whisky to pick up the slack
Everyday I feel the pain, I keep singing tracks

Why do all the sad songs remind me of what we had
why is the sound of my world something that feels bad
why am I alone and awake at night
why am I shaking as I find the words to write

why am I still dreaming about you
is there something in the way that you made me move
why am I still unable to make this true
we could have made a life that was brand new

Roses are red but the rooms are all black
did you say you loved me from some kind of lack
drinking whisky to pick up the slack
Everyday I feel the pain, I keep singing tracks

Miss the people who are gone from my life
like you and my daughter and the ones who were too high
but it’s you I feel the most shame for
why am I thinking of the dress I bought that you wore

Why do all the love songs remind me of you
Why is the colour of my world your eyes so blue
Why did I believe your heart was true
Everyday I feel the pain, think about you

I will not post the musical structure of any of my songs, especially now with the new contract. But lyrics are okay.

All the things (song)

I wish I didn’t have to
keep on loving you
through all of the pain in my mind

I wish I could let go of
all the things we dreamed of
through all the days that went by

I wish I didn’t need you
but like a fool I still do
you haunt my days and my nights

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I wish I didn’t want you
but I do and still love you
my cross to bear in the darkness all alone

I wish the words you told me
when you were held close to me
were the truth as I believed you said

I wish the things you promised me
were really true and to this day
I believe in the fate you told me was driving us

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I wish I didn’t have to
keep on loving you
through all of the pain in my mind

I wish I could let go of
all the things we dreamed of
through all the days that went by

I wish I didn’t need you
but like a fool I still do
you haunt my days and my nights

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I wish I didn’t want you
but I do and still love you
my cross to bear in the darkness all alone

I wish the words you told me
when you were held close to me
were the truth as I believed you said

I wish the things you promised me
were really true and to this day
I believe in the fate your vowed

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I know sometimes I’m hazy
I know that I sound crazy
a mere memory of you is enough to break my day

and the memories still haunt me
your words they still implore me
devote my life to dreams that you will never make real

When we lay and we made love
I felt like I was drawn above
all the things of this world we knew

All the things of this world we knew
All the things of this world we knew

(spoken)
I still love you

This is an R&B song primarily. I wrote it in a furiously inspired 20 minutes. It verges into emo-rap as much of my songwriting has of late. I wrote the music on a keyboard and the lyrics just seemed to flow. I’ve recorded a basic version. I may record more but as with all of my music I’ll keep it to myself.