Dead end blues

Five and dime got a glass of wine
got a bottle of tequila and I feel real fine
round here all the work has run away
and there ain’t much left to make the young folk stay

Drinking from the bottle and taking the pills
ain’t nobody laughing life ain’t got no frills
picking up food from the dollar store
trying to pay the rent and it looks like war

Landlord coming and no money to pay
end up on the street as a lonely stray
heat turned and off no way to pill the bill
trying to hide the cold in these stolen pills

that’s us
we’re living on the edge and we’re sinking like while we cuss
that’s us
we’re driving to the end of the world
that’s us

My wife is staring hard at me
kids are going hungry no way to relief
was love now it’s only survival
neighbours looking less like friends and more like rivals

banker man is mailing me
telling me to pay what I can’t see or believe
when the work closed down had nowhere to go
and the government don’t care they just put on a show

sad songs, trying to make ends meet
dreams of better days are bittersweet
Cheap liquor and gas station booze
trying to keep away the dead-end blues

that’s us
we’re living on the edge and we’re sinking like while we cuss
that’s us
we’re driving to the end of the world
that’s us

We’re driving to the end of the end
that’s us
we living on the edge and sinking while we cuss
that’s us
that’s us

Music to follow. I’m trying to avoid writing hiphop because I feel it might well be cultural appropriation. This isn’t traditional blues by any means. It resides in that darkl place of the southwest of the US

All the things (song)

I wish I didn’t have to
keep on loving you
through all of the pain in my mind

I wish I could let go of
all the things we dreamed of
through all the days that went by

I wish I didn’t need you
but like a fool I still do
you haunt my days and my nights

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I wish I didn’t want you
but I do and still love you
my cross to bear in the darkness all alone

I wish the words you told me
when you were held close to me
were the truth as I believed you said

I wish the things you promised me
were really true and to this day
I believe in the fate you told me was driving us

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I wish I didn’t have to
keep on loving you
through all of the pain in my mind

I wish I could let go of
all the things we dreamed of
through all the days that went by

I wish I didn’t need you
but like a fool I still do
you haunt my days and my nights

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I wish I didn’t want you
but I do and still love you
my cross to bear in the darkness all alone

I wish the words you told me
when you were held close to me
were the truth as I believed you said

I wish the things you promised me
were really true and to this day
I believe in the fate your vowed

(spoken)
I wish I didn’t feel these things, all the suffering and sorrow that the thought of you brings
but my love for you shines through in my darkest hours, remember when we always had fresh flowers
the solace that we found in each other’s arms, kept us warm and safe from harm
all taken away without a word truly spoken, is it only me with my heart broken?

I know sometimes I’m hazy
I know that I sound crazy
a mere memory of you is enough to break my day

and the memories still haunt me
your words they still implore me
devote my life to dreams that you will never make real

When we lay and we made love
I felt like I was drawn above
all the things of this world we knew

All the things of this world we knew
All the things of this world we knew

(spoken)
I still love you

This is an R&B song primarily. I wrote it in a furiously inspired 20 minutes. It verges into emo-rap as much of my songwriting has of late. I wrote the music on a keyboard and the lyrics just seemed to flow. I’ve recorded a basic version. I may record more but as with all of my music I’ll keep it to myself.

Folksong

The devil comes a’knocking, and I always answer the door
he got a bottle of tequila, and a promise on the floor
just trying to make ends meet, before I’m washed ashore
from the half empty bottle to the broken glass he always makes the pour

Train is coming in hollow, outside the fences I can run
head west in the shadow of the bottle, god help me what have I done
sleepin’ in the steel of the wagon, if I have done my sums
be in Nevada in days that are draggin’, steel wheels like the beating of a drum

I used to know a woman, took those devils away
now I’m drinking what I am cookin’, keepin’ the wolves at bay
pushing when I should be pullin’, should fall on my knees and pray
but there ain’t no gods a’watchin’, no doors in this hallway

Knocking on the door is getting louder, there’s a shape that I can’t see
callin’ me away from the tower, as the devils come for me
I’m tossing dice with the demons like a coward, under the dead ash tree
losing in the whiskey and the sours, devil has come for me

The devil has come for me
The devil has come for me

Inspired by that distinctly American blend of bluegrass, folk, country, blues, and rock. Chord structure is a very simple fingerpicked Am, Dm, G, Em. Sort out your own melody (I know how mind sounds)

Feeble

You’re feeling less than loved in a place that’s strange but old to you
you were reaching out for something to bring you something new
body screaming silence while your eyes are truest blue
I was always more than just someone to screw

He grows more conservative with every day that passes
reject from the seventies in aviator glasses
turns into his father for everything that matters
but it happens slowly, you can’t see it as it shatters

You like to pretend that you’d come out fighting
but you cannot get away from all the gaslighting
spying eyes are keeping visions of you in their ever sighting
you tell yourself it’s real, but that’s just the lighting

You’re living in a world that’s full of growing neurosis
your life is a bleeding field of emotional necrosis
but you’ve given yourself to that abusive hypnosis
I ain’t saying nothing new, this was your diagnosis

You think your life will change if you alter your address
but you know it really won’t it’ll still leave you in deep distress
pretending that you’ll make some kind of progress
this is fact ain’t making — any kind of guess

Life is what it is and I know I cannot change it
but every day I wonder and I wish that we could kiss
I hate to see you lose your dreams in living fucking tedious
for the sake of stable living to the exclusion of the passionate

Most of what I am writing these days is hiphop lyrics and beats. Most of it never finds it’s way to this website. But sometime it does, and this is one of those times

Oracle

Seek solace with the bloated bodies of the damned
Corpse light flickering amid the miasma and gloom
Stalk fallow fields of annihilation under yellow sky
Ravens tear the eyes from the sightless dead
The putrescine mephitis a fetid reminder
Of the last days seen by mortal men

Ashes fall like snow to coat the winter lips
Of the not yet deceased, their ragged breath
The last rites of a doomed and broken race
Carcasses piled high under bloody winter moon
Entrails read foresee eradication nigh
As cadavers burn in malignant fire

Shivering air writhes gangrenous tendrils
Of hatred and despite, living flesh ripped
From shattered bone, agonized screams
Delight of the damned as they rot beside the blood rivers
Laughing horsemen ride ‘cross the frenzied world
Destruction under ebony wings

Redemption impossible for fallen humanity
Eviscerated remains the fate of all beheld
Carrion to feed malicious degeneration
Welcome apocalypse of the failed species
Extermination all suffer tortured end
Unholy massacre of the bitter breed

Marchen

This one is fully written and I’m including the guitar chords. I’m working slowly on an actual recording of it but am running into some difficulties. While I am able to write okay with a guitar I really struggle to play effectively (only three fingers — including my thumb — on my fret hand work correctly, and a compound fracture shattered the bones in my left wrist). That said, here you go.

B add11/F#
A/E
G6/D
E/B
AMaj sus 7 (omit 5th)
E/B
D Sus 4
E Sus 4
E/B
AMaj sus 7 (omit 5th)
E/B
B add11/F#

Make believe in fairytales
games of charades
lies, sighs, and fables
on a friendship drive
a personality crusade to surpass

You tend to depress
from one face to another
all looks whole but one is apart
sitting small
and frightened the real you
sitting small
and frightened the real dreamer

Accepting life under glass eyes
telling yourself
that it keeps you safe
but you know, the spies are watching you
but you know
it ain’t for your protection

You tend to fold for
his paranoia
all looks whole but one is apart
sitting small
and frightened the real you
sitting small
and frightened the real dreamer

Make believe in fairytales
games of charades
lies, spies, and fables
under watchful eyes
a personality hidden away

You tend to lie
as you hide who you are
all looks whole but one is apart
sitting small
and frightened the real you
sitting small
and frightened the real dreamer

Make believe in fairytales
games of despair
subsuming yourself
on a mirror drive
to convince that you are real
on a mirror drive to hide
the real dreamer

Won’t you stand tall
And steadfast the real you
Won’t you stand tall
And steadfast the true belonger
Won’t you stand tall
After all these years
Won’t you stand tall
And steadfast
The true belonger

Wealth

Psychopaths and CEOs
priests and politicians
liars wars for profit cause
this is the situation
people dying in the street
freezing in winter’s cold
they could all be easy saved
if we gave a fuck

I’m calling down the red flag song
eight billion of us losing but not for long
we’re setting up the guillotines
we’re coming for revenge
we’re sick to fuck of you telling us our ends

Sociopathic businessman
with fancy clothes and house
stripping people of their cash
and taking food from mouths
he ain’t ever cared
if you had enough to eat
he ain’t never worried
about where you might sleep

I’m calling down the red flag song
eight billion of us losing but not for long
we’re setting up the guillotines
we’re coming for revenge
we’re sick to fuck of you telling us our ends

Song 0.3

I’m drowning in the rain
Your weather takes its toll
There are people out there who are not me
And they’re bringing back reality
And this coat I’m hiding in
Has room for both of us inside
So don’t stand there in the storm
Nobody wants to be a broken soul

And I’m drowning
And I’m trying not to get you wet
And I’m inundated, suffocated, consecrated
By the sound of your tears
By the touch of your hand
By the grief of the only heart I can ever kiss
And the words of love from your lips

I’m swimming through the storm
I’m sinking like a stone
I feel the eyes of the world ignoring me
They don’t care if I stay or go
And the captain lied about this ship
But the lifeboats are still here
So hold my hand if we’re overwhelmed
Let me take all of your fear

And I’m drowning
And I’m trying not to get you wet
And I’m inundated, suffocated, consecrated
By the sound of your tears
By the touch of your hand
By the grief of the only heart I can ever kiss
And the words of love from your lips